Friday, September 23, 2011

showered

ty and i have been so lucky to have such an amazing group of people supporting us through this pregnancy! we've been blessed with four baby showers and we feel so humbled by everyone's generosity. it really is overwhelming to think about everything you need to get ready for a little one to join the family. our friends and family have come to the rescue and given us gifts we couldn't do without. "thank you" really doesn't do how we feel justice. we truly feel lucky to have you guys. i wanted to share a few pictures from a shower hosted by my mom and mother-in-law earlier this month at my aunt's house. it was such a beautiful day - the weather couldn't have been better, and the turn out was awesome! (thank you to auntie annie for getting some fun shots with her iphone that day!)

 

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

little peanut,

hi sweet boy. it's been awhile. i'm sorry about that! i have to tell you little man, your mama is feeling emotional these days. i can't believe we'll be 33 weeks along in just a few days. it is getting more real by the day that you will be in our lives, physically, in just just a few weeks. we are less than two months away from the due date, and i have little moments where i picture myself with you in the house. i picture your daddy rocking you in your chair, changing your diaper, giving you kisses, laughing at your noises. we have gotten so much done around the house. the good news is, we are ready for you. the bad news is, this is probably when time slows down for me and i begin to (ya, right - i'm there) get antsy for your arrival. we have your swing and pack n' play built downstairs in the family room. we have the car seat and stroller in the living room. our dining room table is covered with bottles, a baby food maker, a dishwasher cage, a baby food cook book, etc. your co-sleeper is built and ready for you in our bedroom. and your room... well, we're about there. clothes are in the dresser, pictures are hung, outfits are hung, blankets are washed and folded. i picked out the outfits we'll take with us to the birth center last night. we've got 2 options, sir. one if you are nice to mama and are in the 7-8lb range and another if you are a big boy. i love both, but obviously not-so-secretly am hoping to put you in option 1 which is the smallest, cutest little kicky pants snap up striped number with a super cute green hat that your auntie and uncle stookey picked out for you. option 2 is just as cute. it's a zip up number with little jeeps on it, just for daddy, that you'd wear with this cute grey knit hat. we'll just have to see now won't we?

i am getting nervous for labor. i know i can do it, women do it everyday. but i don't know what i don't know. we decided to go with a birth center because i am hoping for a water birth. i've read some amazing books and i've had some really encouraging conversations. we start our 9 weeks of birth classes tomorrow. i am hoping knowledge is power here little guy. i am going to do my best to trust my body, trust what it's made to do, and bring you into this world as safely as possible. at the end of the day, i want you to be safe. if that means no water birth, that's ok too - but that's what we are preparing for. (when i start to doubt myself, i think about all of the women in africa that work all day through labor, walk to a special spot in the corn field, squat, have their baby, wrap him or her up and then continue on about their work day. totally.) i've been trying to picture what it will be like when i go into labor. will it be during the day? the middle of the night? will i be at home? will your daddy be home? is it going to go slower than i expect? faster? so many questions, the list could go on and on. it's a waste of time asking them, i know. but they are there - in my head, swirling around among the many questions and images i have as i get closer and closer to this new life. your life.

i promise to write a few more of these before you are here. i know that as we get closer, i am going to be feeling new things. it is the most amazing thing having you growing inside me but having no idea who you are by the way. at the same time, it also weirds me out to know that i have something inside me with a face and toenails. i am just being honest. there are moments where this whole thing seems unreal to me. you are my baby, growing inside me, and we are going to meet soon. and my life is going to change forever.

for the better.

i can't wait.

love you, peanut. to the moon and back.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

30 down, 10+ to go...

i can't believe i am 30 weeks pregnant. that just seems so odd. the last 10 weeks went by so so so fast. i had no idea it was going to pick up like that but it definitely did. i've learned a lot about myself in the last 30 weeks. there have also been a lot of things i just didn't expect to think or feel when i was pregnant.
  • i didn't realize i would have such a rocky relationship with food
  • thought i'd feel bigger sooner - i.e. i thought my bump would have been more prominent, noticeable, in the way much sooner into my pregnancy... it wasn't until about 4 weeks ago that i actually felt pregnant... but to be honest, i still kind of feel like that now, so maybe it never really will hit me like i expected it to
  • the movements i feel are more alien-like than i expected, but at the same time i've gotten used to them in a way i didn't anticipate. i thought i'd be super distracted by all of his movements but they are just super normal now.
  • i didn't think i'd be nervous about baby coming like i am starting to feel... i am nervous about the labor, yes. but i'm also starting to feel nervous about the changes... and i am starting to feel guilty when i look at my sweet puppies. oh how their world is about to change.
  • i thought i would have been more tired in my first trimester than i was
  • i am a lot more tired now than i expected to be... and it's only going to get worse i hear
  • i didn't expect to get kidney stones
  • i didn't expect to fail my first glucose screen and definitely didn't expect i'd have to prick my finger like a real diabetic for 3 days
  • i didn't expect to be iron deficient - drinking 10 mL of this nasty liquid iron 4 times a day is still NOT something i look forward to... 
  • i don't talk to my baby as much as i thought i would
  • i thought ty would have felt the baby move more than he has -- seriously, every time ty comes into the room, he freezes up... i'll call ty to come all the way upstairs because "he's moving like CRAZY". the second ty puts his hand on my belly, wyatt immediately stops. lately, i've been trying to let ty sneak up on him so he doesn't expect it, and since then, we've only got one good kick out of him.
  • i didn't expect to be so excited about having a boy... i thought it was going to be less fun prepping for a boy... i was wrong. boy's are so fun. 
  • i've actually had a much easier time finding boy clothes that i like - it costs some moo-la, but it's possible to find cute, non-cheesy boy clothes (think: Splendid, North Face, American Apparel, Tea, Kicky Pants)
  • i thought our house was plenty big for just one more little person -- i didn't realize how much space all of this little person's stuff was going to take up!
  • thought my hair was going to get thicker and longer and more luxurious... nope.
  • thought my nails were going to be extra long and perfect... nope.
  • thought that certain body parts wouldn't be impacted by pregnancy as much as some obviously have... good times.
there's been so many fun things about pregnancy... one thing is for sure, i am enjoying it just as much as i expected i would - kidney stones and all! 
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